Tuesday, November 14, 2006

Brusha Brusha Brusha

I messed up. I went and wished the first two years of their lives away, and now look...she's practically a teenager!

I feel sad at moments like these, when my smooshy little babies seem too grown up. I feel sad because I didn't take enough time to enjoy them. Their babyhood was so full of overwhelming stress, anxiety, sadness, and worry that it was hard to keep my head above water. Looking back I wish I had been able to spend less time worrying over every silly milestone and had just enjoyed the little snickerdoodles that they were.

I just couldn't see it then, that I could wait until LATER to worry. Maybe that should be my new mantra, "I'll worry about it later." If I don't stop worrying so much I'm afraid I may blink and they will be grownups. And grownups just aren't that much fun!


Viscouse said...

I hear you. I keep hearing parents say that too, and am trying to nip the problem in the bud ( http://gharaiblets.com/2006/10/03/548 )

Anyway, time does fly, and those are great pics. Just goes to show that the cute just get cuter. The fact that you now realize that you can enjoy them is testament to the effort you both put into making sure they saw this day.

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Anonymous said...

I completely feel the same exact way. It is tough when your babies go through so much...and then one day you wake up and they are all grown up. I'm having a hard time coming to that realization, too.

Anonymous said...

You worded my feelings exactly Billie!! I have been thinking that lots lately; how I didnt enjoy Lucas and Austin as babies, because of all the worrying and anxiety and stress. I am so glad I am not the only one who feels that way. It makes me so sad as well. We all have missed out on all that normalcy. But worrying is our job as mommies, and we are darn good at it!
Beth Allen :)

Kendra Lynn said...

Oh my gosh...I can't believe how tall Holland looks standing there!
I am marvelling at the way my girls are growing as well.
As I type, Merry is in the living room "fixing" Kelsey's hair. Sigh.


Kim said...

I feel exactly the same way! I feel like I missed their babyhood because I was too busy worrying about something that generally was useless to worry about. Thank you for eloquently stating exactly how I feel and for normalizing it, too :)